week one. it started monday for me.

monday~so i didnt really get started till today. i know. i set myself up for that one. i had my daughter's birthday and then the weekend (are weekends hard or is it just me?).
::today was upper body. i spent 12 minutes on arms using free weights. hit all the big spots. chest, back, tri, bi, shoulders. then i did an 8 minute ab workout- it's a dorky little dvd filmed in the early 90's, but it works. you just have to ignore ALL the sp@ndex!! total:20 min.
i ate pretty well. no major slip ups. i did have some carbs without a protien for snack at night. i was trying to have a strawberry slushy instead of ice cream (like the rest of my family), but couldnt think of a protien that would taste good with it...

tuesday~i had a tough time getting out of bed. but i went ahead and gave it the old college try on the treadmill. my intensity level was pretty low cuz i was having some joint aches. but i kept on pushing through...and so half way through i was able to pick it back up to the level that i normally start at. so-total:20 min
i don't think i ate so great today. i don't remember eating breakfast. i ate crap for lunch. had a good snack, and a yummy peanut butter/chocolate Figure 8 protien smoothie for dinner. then i had 2 almond cookies at a presentation i had that night. okay to be quite honest: she sent me home with 5 , so everyone in my family could have one- and i ate 2 cookies in the car. sick, huh? i thought it was a funny one to share.

wednesday~not sure what happened to me. slept in. i did stay up late working and so i guess that through me off. this was to be my lower body work out session. so i'm having some issues with my left knee. i think i kinda tweaked it in an ice slip. i put the old dvd and instead of doing lower body for half an hour, i did an 8 minutes stretch. and then i did a few squats (w/o weights). really, it was not at all what i planned. but i'm glad that i did have some activity. total:12 minutes
didn't eat as i had hoped either...it was home group, and i ended up eating fast food for dinner. i had a cheeseburger. but i didn't have fries...that's an improvement, for sure.

thursday. hmm. cardio day. didn't EVER get around to it. slept in later that i should have. i'm not doin so great doin it on tue, thurs . i love sat, though. i run so much better, if i've been up for a while. so next week i may try mon, wed, fri, and then if i want to go all out, i may do a sat cardio too. i've been eating these stupid cookies that were brought for home group. i've put the rest (after i ate about 7) in the freezer. really, last night, i was thinking about what was said at our conference at church. who am i? who do i think i am? well for years, i said "i have always been a big girl", or "no one in my family is thin"...so CRAP!!!!!! this a lie! this is NOT who i am.

friday~ i woke up un prepared. i need to have my work out clothes ready the night before. no excuses. so, instead of doing upper body, i instead, just did a quick 8 minute ab work out. glad it was activity, but i haven 't met my goal fo the day. the day's not over yet, though.
so back to the negativity stuff that i have been attacking myself with for years. I have been cursing myself for years. i break off these curses that i have spoken over myself in the name of Jesus. i am ...wonderfully made, a temple for the Holy Spirit, full of the gifts of the Spirit. i have self- control. i'm gonna say that one again. i have self-control. i really do. let the weak say "i am strong". i am strong! i am fit! i am living to my fullest potential. i will not be subject to a yoke of slavery again. i am free! even while i write this, my mind is being attacked with a barrage of lies! i must renew my mind. i realized this morning why i keep eating like crap. wednesday is my weigh in day with another wight loss challenge that i'm doing with arbonne. i discovered that i've lost 7 1/2 lbs. ..and i like the results, that i'm having...and slowly complacency creeps in. i hear "wow, you've done good...this cookie won't hurt"...well, i don't want to settle for 7 lbs. i need to lose 40. i have plateued at this weight that i'm at, before. i have self-control. i have perserverence. i will push onward for the prize (both spiritually and physically!). i'm going to ignore my flesh and circumstances for they are not reality! they are not truth. i am who the bible says i am.