i weighed in friday...and hey, i didn't gain weight! i didn't lose a ton, but i didnt gain!
changing very little the last two weeks still resulted in some weight loss...not to shabby. gosh if i change one more thing this next time...hmmmm...the possibilities of greater weight loss are limitless!!
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Thursday, February 22, 2007
i'm gonna weigh in tomorrow?
i'm nervous. i rebuke this anxiety, fear and condemnation from the devil in Jesus' name!
i didn't try my best...and therefore i'm feeling some consequences. i wanna be a participant in this race, not an observer.
i want to start trying my best. i'm better than this! my church has been declaring things recently, so i want to pass this one on...(i'm gonna say this one out loud, with authority and mean it!!)
Declaration of Destiny (2 Tim. 1; Romans 8; Col. 2)
"Jesus, You have selected me before the beginning of time to recieve grace and not condemnation. I have a God given responsibility on this earth that is only assigned to me and Jesus will provide for me everything I need to fulfill that assignment.
No demon, no sickness, and no hardship can keep me from walking in my dstiny. Every obstacle I face must submit to my God given Kingdom authority. All principalities and powers were defeated through the death and resurrection of my Lord.
I am destined to share in His glory and to walk in glory...amen!"
i didn't try my best...and therefore i'm feeling some consequences. i wanna be a participant in this race, not an observer.
i want to start trying my best. i'm better than this! my church has been declaring things recently, so i want to pass this one on...(i'm gonna say this one out loud, with authority and mean it!!)
Declaration of Destiny (2 Tim. 1; Romans 8; Col. 2)
"Jesus, You have selected me before the beginning of time to recieve grace and not condemnation. I have a God given responsibility on this earth that is only assigned to me and Jesus will provide for me everything I need to fulfill that assignment.
No demon, no sickness, and no hardship can keep me from walking in my dstiny. Every obstacle I face must submit to my God given Kingdom authority. All principalities and powers were defeated through the death and resurrection of my Lord.
I am destined to share in His glory and to walk in glory...amen!"
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
real age
i'm really 31.6...my "real age" is 33.4.
this test was an eye opener...cause in my heart i'm only early 20's.
this test was an eye opener...cause in my heart i'm only early 20's.
internal feelings about food
1. When did you start using food for non-nutritional reasons? Why was it that you started medicating yourself with food, taking care of yourself with food and comforting yourself with food? Go back to that time and write down what you were feeling and experiencing at the time.
this goes way back. as far as i can remember. don't think it was too uncommon, but i'd get treats for doing good, or we'd eat ice cream if we didn't feel good. i LIKE the way sweets taste, and so it has always been a treat for me. i remember being around 5-7 and hiding food, and sneaking money for candy. my family spoke things over me, too. like-"everyone in the bates family is fat", or when we over eat it was, "that's the old bates blood". it was not abnormal for eating to be a treat, or comfort. it is making me so aware of what i do for my kids. i know when i was a kid, i felt fat. i think it was about 2nd grade when a little boy said it. i think i just started eating more and more. i remember feeling deprived if i didnt get a sweet snack or treat. i'd say i was younger than 7 when i remember my grandmother trying to help me "diet". she'd give me diet candy...tasted like crap, but dang that must have been confusing for a kiddo. i always felt fat-wheter or not i really was.
2. Write down all of the insecurities that you're feeling right now.
i feel uncomfortable in my skin, in my clothes, in big crowds. i feel like people look at me as being "unhealthy" or they judge me because of my size.
3. Now look at your answers to question one and question two together. The answers to question two may be more specific because you don't have to remember as far back, but do you see similarities?
i felt uncomfortable then and now...i medicated my emotions with food.
4. Now take every comment, fear and anxiety that you wrote down in response to questions one and two and challenge them. In writing. For example, if one of your fears is, "My spouse isn't really attracted to me because of my weight," challenge it by writing down a piece of evidence. Evidence isn't, "Because that's the way I feel." Write down any facts you have that can support your challenge. For example, "My spouse met, fell in love with, and married me while I was at my heaviest weight." Challenge every fear and negative thought you wrote down in this manner with facts you can support.
i am working on my body inside and out, and therefore it is changing. i am fearfully and wonderfully made. i bring light to darkness and crowds of people are drawn to the light. i don't walk in fear of anything, anyone, or any circumstance, and therefore judgement or man's opinion does not affect who i am or what i'm doing.
this goes way back. as far as i can remember. don't think it was too uncommon, but i'd get treats for doing good, or we'd eat ice cream if we didn't feel good. i LIKE the way sweets taste, and so it has always been a treat for me. i remember being around 5-7 and hiding food, and sneaking money for candy. my family spoke things over me, too. like-"everyone in the bates family is fat", or when we over eat it was, "that's the old bates blood". it was not abnormal for eating to be a treat, or comfort. it is making me so aware of what i do for my kids. i know when i was a kid, i felt fat. i think it was about 2nd grade when a little boy said it. i think i just started eating more and more. i remember feeling deprived if i didnt get a sweet snack or treat. i'd say i was younger than 7 when i remember my grandmother trying to help me "diet". she'd give me diet candy...tasted like crap, but dang that must have been confusing for a kiddo. i always felt fat-wheter or not i really was.
2. Write down all of the insecurities that you're feeling right now.
i feel uncomfortable in my skin, in my clothes, in big crowds. i feel like people look at me as being "unhealthy" or they judge me because of my size.
3. Now look at your answers to question one and question two together. The answers to question two may be more specific because you don't have to remember as far back, but do you see similarities?
i felt uncomfortable then and now...i medicated my emotions with food.
4. Now take every comment, fear and anxiety that you wrote down in response to questions one and two and challenge them. In writing. For example, if one of your fears is, "My spouse isn't really attracted to me because of my weight," challenge it by writing down a piece of evidence. Evidence isn't, "Because that's the way I feel." Write down any facts you have that can support your challenge. For example, "My spouse met, fell in love with, and married me while I was at my heaviest weight." Challenge every fear and negative thought you wrote down in this manner with facts you can support.
i am working on my body inside and out, and therefore it is changing. i am fearfully and wonderfully made. i bring light to darkness and crowds of people are drawn to the light. i don't walk in fear of anything, anyone, or any circumstance, and therefore judgement or man's opinion does not affect who i am or what i'm doing.
week 3/4...what happened?
i can do this. i can do this. i can do this. i can do this. i can do this....i deserve to be fit and healthy, living at my fullest potential, doin the work of the Lord. i am more than a conqueror.
i didnt touch the assignement last week. so many things the enemy attacked us with...too many excuses. not sure why i can't place it as a priority in my life even when things are crazy. i instead turned back to food. it takes so little effort to do that. i'm sure i'll get to the bottom of it with the support and encouragement of this group.
i didnt touch the assignement last week. so many things the enemy attacked us with...too many excuses. not sure why i can't place it as a priority in my life even when things are crazy. i instead turned back to food. it takes so little effort to do that. i'm sure i'll get to the bottom of it with the support and encouragement of this group.
Wednesday, February 7, 2007
week two!
our homework to blog about our thinking has gotten me to doin some thinking. did i already say that? well after taking the dr.phill test, i've discovered a few things about who i was. i say who i was, because i answered the questions as who i was a few weeks ago. but really, i'm already changing. i used to internalize, label, have frustration thinking, and the "all or nothing" attitude. so this set me up for a few pitfalls. i always took resposibility for my weight being out of control, so that was good. i wasn't blaming anybody. but it was also sooo much pressure when thats in combination with saying wrong things about myself. cuz then i'd say to myself, "i can never do this", or "i've always been a big gal"...so this was all so detrimental to my health and success. i don't know how many times i had the all or nothing attitude just last week (i ate a LOT of cookies-just to get rid of them!?). i want to change this for sure! i learned a bit about this when i read a book a few years ago called "sink reflections". it's about home organization and routines, but i discovered i was this way when it came to my home...a perfectionist in some sort of wierd way. so i guess i've been this way all along with my health, too. i don't wanna be this way any more!! i heard this quote the other day, regarding my business, but it applies to my health goals, too... "the greatest gap in life is between knowing and doing."--john maxwell
now i know.
now i'm gonna do.
~~water~~we all know it's soooo good for us, but oh my gosh! it's sick how i used to not even drink anything all day long...much less drink water. no wonder i wasn't feeling so great. the article we read said >>>1. Water is the essence of life. Life cannot exist without water. We must always be adding fresh water to our bodies in order to keep them well hydrated. Water can be a wonder cure for a lot of common illnesses such as headaches, fatigue, joint pain, and much more. We can go for weeks without food, but only 3 days without water. Over half your body is made up of water.
...so, i'm drinkin it. i actally tried to drink a diet dr. pepper and i couldn't do it. sunday i was craving one, but i'm trying to avoid them now. i liked the ddp as a treat. now i'm drinking my figure8 daily detox tea, coffee (i know, i know), water with lemon, or lime & when i want a sweet drink-i'm drinkin water with lemon and a tablet of stevia (an herbal sweetener) dissolved in it...kinda like a lemonade. i think its yummy.
~~excercise~~yes. i can do 75 minutes this week. i've already knocked out half!!
now i know.
now i'm gonna do.
~~water~~we all know it's soooo good for us, but oh my gosh! it's sick how i used to not even drink anything all day long...much less drink water. no wonder i wasn't feeling so great. the article we read said >>>1. Water is the essence of life. Life cannot exist without water. We must always be adding fresh water to our bodies in order to keep them well hydrated. Water can be a wonder cure for a lot of common illnesses such as headaches, fatigue, joint pain, and much more. We can go for weeks without food, but only 3 days without water. Over half your body is made up of water.
...so, i'm drinkin it. i actally tried to drink a diet dr. pepper and i couldn't do it. sunday i was craving one, but i'm trying to avoid them now. i liked the ddp as a treat. now i'm drinking my figure8 daily detox tea, coffee (i know, i know), water with lemon, or lime & when i want a sweet drink-i'm drinkin water with lemon and a tablet of stevia (an herbal sweetener) dissolved in it...kinda like a lemonade. i think its yummy.
~~excercise~~yes. i can do 75 minutes this week. i've already knocked out half!!
Monday, January 29, 2007
week one. it started monday for me.
monday~so i didnt really get started till today. i know. i set myself up for that one. i had my daughter's birthday and then the weekend (are weekends hard or is it just me?).
::today was upper body. i spent 12 minutes on arms using free weights. hit all the big spots. chest, back, tri, bi, shoulders. then i did an 8 minute ab workout- it's a dorky little dvd filmed in the early 90's, but it works. you just have to ignore ALL the sp@ndex!! total:20 min.
i ate pretty well. no major slip ups. i did have some carbs without a protien for snack at night. i was trying to have a strawberry slushy instead of ice cream (like the rest of my family), but couldnt think of a protien that would taste good with it...
tuesday~i had a tough time getting out of bed. but i went ahead and gave it the old college try on the treadmill. my intensity level was pretty low cuz i was having some joint aches. but i kept on pushing through...and so half way through i was able to pick it back up to the level that i normally start at. so-total:20 min
i don't think i ate so great today. i don't remember eating breakfast. i ate crap for lunch. had a good snack, and a yummy peanut butter/chocolate Figure 8 protien smoothie for dinner. then i had 2 almond cookies at a presentation i had that night. okay to be quite honest: she sent me home with 5 , so everyone in my family could have one- and i ate 2 cookies in the car. sick, huh? i thought it was a funny one to share.
wednesday~not sure what happened to me. slept in. i did stay up late working and so i guess that through me off. this was to be my lower body work out session. so i'm having some issues with my left knee. i think i kinda tweaked it in an ice slip. i put the old dvd and instead of doing lower body for half an hour, i did an 8 minutes stretch. and then i did a few squats (w/o weights). really, it was not at all what i planned. but i'm glad that i did have some activity. total:12 minutes
didn't eat as i had hoped either...it was home group, and i ended up eating fast food for dinner. i had a cheeseburger. but i didn't have fries...that's an improvement, for sure.
thursday. hmm. cardio day. didn't EVER get around to it. slept in later that i should have. i'm not doin so great doin it on tue, thurs . i love sat, though. i run so much better, if i've been up for a while. so next week i may try mon, wed, fri, and then if i want to go all out, i may do a sat cardio too. i've been eating these stupid cookies that were brought for home group. i've put the rest (after i ate about 7) in the freezer. really, last night, i was thinking about what was said at our conference at church. who am i? who do i think i am? well for years, i said "i have always been a big girl", or "no one in my family is thin"...so CRAP!!!!!! this a lie! this is NOT who i am.
friday~ i woke up un prepared. i need to have my work out clothes ready the night before. no excuses. so, instead of doing upper body, i instead, just did a quick 8 minute ab work out. glad it was activity, but i haven 't met my goal fo the day. the day's not over yet, though.
so back to the negativity stuff that i have been attacking myself with for years. I have been cursing myself for years. i break off these curses that i have spoken over myself in the name of Jesus. i am ...wonderfully made, a temple for the Holy Spirit, full of the gifts of the Spirit. i have self- control. i'm gonna say that one again. i have self-control. i really do. let the weak say "i am strong". i am strong! i am fit! i am living to my fullest potential. i will not be subject to a yoke of slavery again. i am free! even while i write this, my mind is being attacked with a barrage of lies! i must renew my mind. i realized this morning why i keep eating like crap. wednesday is my weigh in day with another wight loss challenge that i'm doing with arbonne. i discovered that i've lost 7 1/2 lbs. ..and i like the results, that i'm having...and slowly complacency creeps in. i hear "wow, you've done good...this cookie won't hurt"...well, i don't want to settle for 7 lbs. i need to lose 40. i have plateued at this weight that i'm at, before. i have self-control. i have perserverence. i will push onward for the prize (both spiritually and physically!). i'm going to ignore my flesh and circumstances for they are not reality! they are not truth. i am who the bible says i am.
::today was upper body. i spent 12 minutes on arms using free weights. hit all the big spots. chest, back, tri, bi, shoulders. then i did an 8 minute ab workout- it's a dorky little dvd filmed in the early 90's, but it works. you just have to ignore ALL the sp@ndex!! total:20 min.
i ate pretty well. no major slip ups. i did have some carbs without a protien for snack at night. i was trying to have a strawberry slushy instead of ice cream (like the rest of my family), but couldnt think of a protien that would taste good with it...
tuesday~i had a tough time getting out of bed. but i went ahead and gave it the old college try on the treadmill. my intensity level was pretty low cuz i was having some joint aches. but i kept on pushing through...and so half way through i was able to pick it back up to the level that i normally start at. so-total:20 min
i don't think i ate so great today. i don't remember eating breakfast. i ate crap for lunch. had a good snack, and a yummy peanut butter/chocolate Figure 8 protien smoothie for dinner. then i had 2 almond cookies at a presentation i had that night. okay to be quite honest: she sent me home with 5 , so everyone in my family could have one- and i ate 2 cookies in the car. sick, huh? i thought it was a funny one to share.
wednesday~not sure what happened to me. slept in. i did stay up late working and so i guess that through me off. this was to be my lower body work out session. so i'm having some issues with my left knee. i think i kinda tweaked it in an ice slip. i put the old dvd and instead of doing lower body for half an hour, i did an 8 minutes stretch. and then i did a few squats (w/o weights). really, it was not at all what i planned. but i'm glad that i did have some activity. total:12 minutes
didn't eat as i had hoped either...it was home group, and i ended up eating fast food for dinner. i had a cheeseburger. but i didn't have fries...that's an improvement, for sure.
thursday. hmm. cardio day. didn't EVER get around to it. slept in later that i should have. i'm not doin so great doin it on tue, thurs . i love sat, though. i run so much better, if i've been up for a while. so next week i may try mon, wed, fri, and then if i want to go all out, i may do a sat cardio too. i've been eating these stupid cookies that were brought for home group. i've put the rest (after i ate about 7) in the freezer. really, last night, i was thinking about what was said at our conference at church. who am i? who do i think i am? well for years, i said "i have always been a big girl", or "no one in my family is thin"...so CRAP!!!!!! this a lie! this is NOT who i am.
friday~ i woke up un prepared. i need to have my work out clothes ready the night before. no excuses. so, instead of doing upper body, i instead, just did a quick 8 minute ab work out. glad it was activity, but i haven 't met my goal fo the day. the day's not over yet, though.
so back to the negativity stuff that i have been attacking myself with for years. I have been cursing myself for years. i break off these curses that i have spoken over myself in the name of Jesus. i am ...wonderfully made, a temple for the Holy Spirit, full of the gifts of the Spirit. i have self- control. i'm gonna say that one again. i have self-control. i really do. let the weak say "i am strong". i am strong! i am fit! i am living to my fullest potential. i will not be subject to a yoke of slavery again. i am free! even while i write this, my mind is being attacked with a barrage of lies! i must renew my mind. i realized this morning why i keep eating like crap. wednesday is my weigh in day with another wight loss challenge that i'm doing with arbonne. i discovered that i've lost 7 1/2 lbs. ..and i like the results, that i'm having...and slowly complacency creeps in. i hear "wow, you've done good...this cookie won't hurt"...well, i don't want to settle for 7 lbs. i need to lose 40. i have plateued at this weight that i'm at, before. i have self-control. i have perserverence. i will push onward for the prize (both spiritually and physically!). i'm going to ignore my flesh and circumstances for they are not reality! they are not truth. i am who the bible says i am.
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